Carrie’s Journal

The Magic of Manifesting (My article in the New Age Journal)

The Magic of Manifesting

by Carrie Bailey

I grew up with a strong interest in Spirituality and you could often find me in the Self-Help and Spirituality section at a bookstore. When “The Secret” came out in 2006 I was instantly hooked. After learning the incredible transformations that took place from following a few certain steps, my life became forever changed. I began to journal a lot more about my goals and dreams than the usual teenage gossip or heartbreak that I was going through. In November 2009 I was watching an Oprah episode which was based around the Law of Attraction. One of her guests described how she manifested her husband and the resemblances were astonishing. I was inspired and went straight to work on designing my “Dream Man”. I began to describe him first by appearance, in precise detail like the woman did on T.V. “Actor, Blonde wavy hair, green eyes, sexy voice, rides a motorcycle and owns a boat” were just a few surface layer attributes that I chose amongst many others of both physical and non-physical nature.

A few years later in 2012 I was at a place called The Blarney Stone in the Gastown area of Vancouver, BC with my girlfriend. She bumped into a guy she was newly seeing and he was with a friend who’s voice sounded eerily familiar the second he introduced himself to me. As the evening went on, this mysterious man invited us back to his place on Water Street just a few blocks away and the pieces started to come together for me. When we got to his beautiful two story penthouse overlooking the North Shore mountains and ocean, he showed us a clip from a movie him and this friend starred in; he was an Actor!

I was overwhelmed with excitement and as much as I was enjoying my time getting to know this intriguing man, I couldn’t wait to get home to review the note I wrote myself years prior. The evening was coming to an end so we all planned to meet up again that following weekend to spend a day out on his boat. I remember us kissing goodnight at the door as we were leaving and it just felt different. It felt more like electricity than butterflies and as soon as I got into the elevator I gushed to my girlfriend how I knew this was the man that I wrote about on my list. When I got home that night I was blown away by all the similarities; Actor, Blonde wavy hair, owned a boat and he had the sexiest voice I had ever heard in my life! I developed the biggest girl crush from discovering this information and was convinced we were destined to be together. We started hanging out every once in a while but at the time ‘liquid courage’ was needed when I’d be around anyone from the opposite sex that I was attracted to, so booze was always involved and this was most always the case with Andrew. He also seemed to be quite the party boy so our encounters became more of an occasional hookup and overtime this ‘crush’ eventually faded and we went our separate ways.

I struggled with alcohol for years after and became quite the party girl myself. As I drifted through life trying to make ends meet, I was working in the cosmetic industry as a Jr Account Executive and felt completely lost and just totally empty inside. I always had this nagging feeling that I wasn’t living out my life’s purpose. Then I remembered a psychic from when I was 16 and another one in 2012 both saying I would own my own business one day. The one in 2012 specifically said she saw it being in Gastown. I liked the sounds of it so I decided to write a list of my “Dream Business”. I didn’t know exactly at the time what it would entail but I knew I wanted it to be in the metaphysical realm since these interests came naturally to me. I felt it was a great start but I was still struggling as I didn’t make any solid moves in that direction. As I became further detached from life as I continued my drinking problem, I quickly found myself spiraling downwards. On August 7th 2015 I woke up hearing a voice telling me “Its all over”. The night before I had far too many drinks and I’d had enough. I remember the feeling of wanting to take my own life and praying to God to save me from this state of despair I was currently in. I couldn’t live my life this way any longer. That morning I felt a higher power speaking to me, more like through me. I was filled with this overwhelming reassurance that I would never pick up another drink again. This wasn’t the first time I had tried to give up alcohol though, 10 months prior I was seeing an energy healer that helped me see things more clearly.

The veil was lifted and I was eager to get back to that safe place I was briefly once at. Building upon this newfound intuition I was drawn to enroll in the Reiki level 1 healing course. I knew this time I had to heal myself. As my sobriety turned from days, to weeks to months, I was breaking down major barriers that I couldn’t have done before I acquired all of this incredible newfound knowledge and strength. I finally found my life’s purpose! Finally with this new revelation, every ounce of me felt complete. I started adding to my business plan that I had originally made and held strong faith that I will one day open this healing centre. This centre would be focused around helping people, using the skills I had acquired, I would tie in Energy healing and Health and Wellness.

I finally had no doubt in my mind what my purpose was now. I was meant to help others overcome their struggles and addictions, just like I had done so myself. This past January 1st 2017 I decided to go back to the drawing board and rewrite in detail of what I wanted to manifest one last time. I sealed it into an envelope and dated it for that following January 1st 2018. At the top of the list included manifesting a husband as well as my dream business and this time I incorporated visualization as I wrote all my wishes down. A few days later on January 3rd, I was reacquainted with the man I had originally manifested back in 2012, “The Green eyed, blonde wavy hair Actor”; Andrew Francis.

With now being a year and a half sober, living my true authentic self. I finally had the confidence to be around this man I once felt intimidated by. I found myself falling in love faster than I had thought and everything moved quite quickly for us. We were living together before we even made it official! For the months leading up to the summer he was preparing himself physically and mentally for his leave to the island, where he would go to film the second season of a Television series he had a lead role on called Chesapeake Shores. By this point I worked my way up to an Account Executive for the number one cosmetic line on the market. As the days went on I felt progressively worse, like I was really losing myself. Being around Andrew, who had this intense passion and excitement for his career, gave me this empty feeling inside and I knew I needed to start living my true self. Only downfall was, where do I begin? It felt completely out of reach and I became overwhelmed with the feeling that I may never get there.

I started praying to my angels and God to help align me with my dream business, I couldn’t stand working in this industry anymore. I gave it all up to the Universe and completely let all my worries go. I finally had full faith in the Universe for delivering my desires and that it would one day happen in divine timing. The wheels started turning faster than I anticipated and only a few days later Andrew received an email from his landlord stating his old place on Water street that he was subletting was becoming available again. The only issue was that the building was turning into more of a business complex which meant he would have to either give the place up or open a business. He then paused for a brief moment upon finishing the email and all of a sudden as if a light bulb went on above him says, “Why don’t we start your business?” I remember the feeling of complete shock by how quickly this intention manifested but I didn’t want to get too excited as I thought maybe he was a bit out of his mind, so I gave it about a week to find out if he was in fact serious. And he was. I not only manifested my dream man but now my dream business was unraveling in ways I could have never imagined!

ZENDEN opened its doors on November 18th, 2017 in the heart of Gastown, British Columbia. We offer everything from daily meditation, yoga, sound healing to events, workshops and monthly full moon ceremonies. We will also be offering private energy healing sessions and a place for the sober community to enjoy on a weekend night out that doesn’t involve booze and the occasional wild crowd it can often come with. With Vancouver once being named the “Unhappiest City in Canada” and most find it difficult to make friends, our intention for ZENDEN is to not only be a studio that offers classes for the conscious community but also to act as a platform for those who may be experiencing hardships and are struggling to overcome them. With that being said, Creating a community throughout Vancouver of love, togetherness and acceptance. We want to provide the knowledge we’ve acquired with others, so they too can experience a life of their dreams!

About the author:

Carrie Bailey is the Co-Founder of the newest meditation studio to open in Vancouver called ZENDEN. She is a Reiki level 1 practitioner, an Intuitive Guidance Coach and is also currently training for her Emotion Code certification.

March 6th- How my Drop-In Studio changed my life and how it can change yours!

I have had struggles in specific areas my entire life. Whether it be substance abuse issues, focusing in school, relationships with others or constant mood swings I couldn’t describe. In my teenage years when I really witnessed the pattern forming I started to question whether I had something wrong with me. I went to a therapist in my mid twenties that diagnosed me with BPD. Borderline personality disorder (BPD), which is also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder (EUPD) it is a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by unstable relationships with other people, unstable sense of self, and unstable emotions. It didn’t come as a shock to me as it was something I had researched for years whenever I would experience an episode. I was just too afraid to really face it. The doctor I was seeing recommended I start meditating which I remember trying but couldn’t keep it up. My mind just wouldn’t shut off and I found it extremely challenging to get through even just a few short minutes. Meditating by myself was nowhere near enjoyable. It wasn’t until I was able to do it in group settings at ZENDEN along with Sound Healing that I found myself looking forward to meditating at home without the need to be in a group. After my few failed attempts at meditating years prior, I ended up giving up on finding a solution and continued to struggle for years later.

I began to think maybe my drinking problem could be the issue and by that point I just ran myself down to the lowest point I could in my life to push me to quit alcohol altogether. I also thought maybe my drinking was the reason I couldn’t hold down a relationship. I started to turn to spirituality in this time to help with this transition and I seeked help from many energy healers and also decided to use up my benefits package at work. I sat a few times with psychologists and other healers in the city. I tried almost everything from reiki, theta, reconnective, acupuncture, EMDR and even partaking in 2 ayauhascha ceremonies. This all helped me to stay sober and my behaviour did seem to be more stabilized in this time than it had been in years but it wasn’t until I started dating my new boyfriend that the patterns of BPD arose again. Things moved fast for us in our relationship. We decided to open a meditation and healing studio together less than 2 months into us dating as we saw the demand for healing and meditation in this city. It was a passion project that had been part of my dream for years now that stemmed from my own journey of healing from addictions. Andrew saw this fire in me and was drawn to take part. Even though him and I had very little experience with meditation and sound healing I felt this higher power pushing us to open this studio. I always thought I would just start off as a Reiki healer then build it from there but the Universe had a bigger plan.

Weeks leading up to the opening of our business I was cycling in and out of these intense emotions that I just could not get a grasp on for the life of me. We were dealing with constant stress of having to move from our place in Yaletown to next door to our business along with the pressures of opening a new business just  pushed me to the edge. I also had to make everything perfect for the grand opening which added more unnecessary stress. I was losing my sense of identity along the way and not to mention sabotaging my relationship. I wasn’t practicing what we were about to preach and it wasn’t until I started to take the meditation and sound classes on a regular basis and also facilitate the classes myself is when the changes really started to transpire. And on a much bigger scale than I was even aware was humanely possible! It took a period of about 6-8 weeks from facilitating the classes until I became free of these episodes. And I mean completely free. I thought I would have to die with this brutal disorder as I felt I had tried everything up to this point I could possibly imagine. I am more mindful now. I used to snap at little things and now those little things don’t even bother me. If I am annoyed and I start to use a tone of voice to Andrew that would be considered bitchy, I instantly notice it the second it arises and it almost gives some kind of shockwave through my body that I will detect in a matter of milli seconds that it makes me jump in a way and snap out of it. I realize I don’t even like the way it sounds and I will switch to speaking in a nicer tone of voice. I used to say the meanest things to him that I didn’t mean when we would really get into it and now it doesn’t escalate to that level of fighting because I don’t even like the tone of voice to begin with! Our fights do not get anywhere near how they were before. Our classification of fighting now would be considered whining and would be over within a matter of minutes. It has changed our relationship drastically. This line of work has made me a more loving and mindful person in all ways. I feel more love for myself and just love for humanity as a whole. I always had paranoid thoughts that everyone was against me. I would have negative thoughts arise that I couldn’t shake at times and now I view life so differently. In a more loving and beautiful way. It has made me become a better person. A person I knew I was destined to be deep down inside. Not someone who has to endure this horrible disorder that robs you of your sanity. I am now determined to lend my hand and I feel it is my responsibility to be of service to others who are struggling with this disorder. I strongly believe I was dealt these struggles so I could help others who are experiencing the same issues. This disorder has a high risk of suicide and it unfortunately has taken far too many lives. The struggling has got to end.

So, I have decided to conduct my own research into healing BPD with the intent to get further research by professionals in this area. I will be looking for individuals who have been diagnosed with BPD and are currently struggling. If you or someone you know are struggling with this and would be open to a 3 month trial please contact me at

I will need someone who can commit to partake in 3 months of Meditation/Sound Healing and Energy Healing classes through our studio which will be free of charge. You will need to commit to atleast 4 days of attending these classes in studio along with facilitating 3-4 Sound Healing classes a week for 8 weeks. We require you to eventually develop a regular meditation practice at home at some point within the 8 weeks if you aren’t already doing so. You will also be required to be transparent and be open to discuss your progress as you go along and this may include being on camera. I will also be providing free one on one Reiki and Emotion Code private sessions with you as well as providing you with some information that I have learned to be of beneficial use in my own healing. Please note I am not a Psychologist but someone who has known first off how debilitating this disorder can be. I am doing this out of the pure goodness of my heart to help others and to find out if this disorder can once and for all become stabilized if not cured by the powerful effects of Sound Healing. There is little to no research done in this area on Sound healing and the impact it has on this disorder so it is now a passion of mine to help others who struggle and are experiencing no relief from their current methods. I know how hard this can be for not only yourself to live with but how hard it can be on your loved ones as well.


Please contact me if you would be open to the possibility of discovering healing through these modalities.


Love and Light,



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